Attacking Anxiety

Hi. I'm Joseph Mayuyo, my family (grandfather) left me with a generational curse that has affected me all my life. I was the only kid out of my siblings that were not planned. As I was told, my parents didn't want a son because they were superstitious about all the men who would be born from my dad's side. The curse is from my grandfather. He passed away before I could ever meet him. However, he died while he was angry and broken.    My grandfather was known to be notorious back home in the Philippines. He had a lot of enemies. I asked my dad what he was like and why he never shared anything about him. What my dad said made me instantly regret being so curious. Apparently, my dad was born into a rich family. He is a middle child between 12 brothers and sisters. My dad clearly remembers how it affected him when he was a boy.    Being from a rich family is not what my family is known for, especially now. My grandfather yelled curses as he passed away from multiple organ failures. But before