On The Edge With April Mahoney

Youtube Version  https://www.leanneboyd.com I had spent my most of life wanting to be ‘more than I felt that I was. In my eyes, I was always second best. Being the youngest of six children, I was a shy little country girl who wanted to be someone who people would notice and say “WOW, Look at her!” instead of being always overlooked. I didn’t want to keep feeling ‘Blah’, so I pretended to be a ‘Superstar!’ However, I was always willing to do whatever it takes to be the best I could be. I felt competitive but no matter how much I strived to be better, no matter how many sacrifices I made, I felt I was never ‘good enough’ to come out on top. I appeared so confident on the outside looking like everything was great. Always smiling and pushing myself out of my comfort zone but inside I was an anxious, emotionally exhausted and stressed mess. I did accomplish some great things – won many personality quests, had an awesome job as a flight attendant and worked in the beauty industry on the side, and always at parties